Hello, my name is Kristen and I'm a food addict.
Now I don't meant to make any jokes about people who suffer from addictions such as drugs and alcohol. However, I seriously consider that the number one reason I have got to the weight I am, is that I am addicted to food.
Now I don't meant to make any jokes about people who suffer from addictions such as drugs and alcohol. However, I seriously consider that the number one reason I have got to the weight I am, is that I am addicted to food.
Take this example at work yesterday. It's about 4pm - the time that our office usually partakes in drinks and nibbles, what better way to end the working week? I hear the noise, it's the crumble of plastic as someone opens a packet of chips/rice crackers/or whatever wonderfully fatty and processed food is on offer for today. Instantly I'm very aware that this sumptuous treat is less than 2 metres from me.
It's all I can think about. My stomach churns in anticipation of receiving food, wonderful food. I muster all the willpower I have to walk past the kitchen and fill my water bottle up. I remind myself, it's only day 2, it's too early to fail, it's my choice not to eat it.
And so I survived one temptation. I can only guess how many hundreds or thousands of other temptations will cross my path over the next twelve weeks.
Food, unlike other addictive substances, is something we need to live. There's no going cold turkey on this addiction. Food is readily available, on every street corner, in every petrol station, in your biscuit jar at work, the plate of fresh muffins at a cafe, the wonderful appetisers your friend has baked for a dinner party. It's your social life. It's the way we live. Who doesn't love to catch up with a friend over dinner, eat some cake to celebrate a Birthday?
So how do I beat this addiction? I don't know just yet, but I'm taking it one day at a time.
And so I survived one temptation. I can only guess how many hundreds or thousands of other temptations will cross my path over the next twelve weeks.
Food, unlike other addictive substances, is something we need to live. There's no going cold turkey on this addiction. Food is readily available, on every street corner, in every petrol station, in your biscuit jar at work, the plate of fresh muffins at a cafe, the wonderful appetisers your friend has baked for a dinner party. It's your social life. It's the way we live. Who doesn't love to catch up with a friend over dinner, eat some cake to celebrate a Birthday?
So how do I beat this addiction? I don't know just yet, but I'm taking it one day at a time.
Kristin I read what you are saying and its like I wrote it. I too am a food addict. I have started and failed so many times its sad. I am a huge binge eater to the point i will need to rid my house of all junk or i will most deffinatly eat it in a weak moment. I love reading your blog and i know we can do this. Its just 84 days right? hehe I love the way you rationalise things, really gets me thinking. I smiled at the wrapper comment, me tooo! or i can smell it? Great knowing there is someone else at there that walks in my shoes :)
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Thanks for the support Mychellee! I'm glad to have a fan. I have to say writing this blog is so theraputic and helps me keep my eye on the goal. Plus if I go to slip up I know I have to post it on here, so that helps keep me in check.
ReplyDeleteHopefully we can both get some results! :)
Love the way you write Kristen, and how very true are the things you've written!
ReplyDeleteI was once a member of Overeaters Anonymous for 18 months. It was amazingly good. One week I couldn't make my usual meeting so asked attendance at an AA meeting instead and they happily let me visit. One of the members there said that to start with he begrudged me being there but as I shared during my own time he suddenly realised the horror and enormity of *having* to partake of your 'substance of choice' 3 times a day and then stop again. He said he was blown away by how hard it must be.
And it is huh?
Love
May (from TF)
Thanks for the comments May.
ReplyDeleteIt is without a doubt, the biggest challenge I have faced in my life. And no doubt, one which will continue to challenge me for the rest of my life.
The fact that we have to face food three times a day is hard enough... but I truly love food and eveything which surrounds it. I love to cook, bake, entertain, try new restaurants etc. Trying to reconcile that with weight loss is an enormous weight on my shoulders (and my stomach and thighs, which I hope will be gone soon enough ;)).
keep up the good work. Slowly your taste buds will change. They become "dead" contact with processed and fatty foods. Slowly they will crave and enjoy good nutritious good. Foods that were once boring to me, have become incredibly delicious. it will happen. !
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